Livin' on a Prairie

The word "prairie" looks wrong. I could check it, but that would go against the point of this post, which is living in the moment.

I dislike planning. Thus, I do not plan "get togethers" and instead push them off to another person (blr) even if the location is directly related to me. I'd rather it if there were a common knowledge base where everyone could subconsciously tell everyone else when they are free, and with a moment's notice, a person who wanted one of these "get togethers" could mentally text everyone else (or physically, I guess that would work also) to arrive within the hour. Voila, crisis of unconnected schedules and the faults of planning solved. Yeah, that would be nice.

I don't enjoy thinking about the future to the extent that I can make an equation for it: Realistic Future Planning/Thinking = Stress for Present. I try to avoid stress when I can. If I don't want to work on a paper or project, I don't. If I don't want to study for a Calculus test, I don't. If I can be relaxed for the present, the future is not so daunting. Even though I will eventually need to do that studying or do that paper, I know I still have more time in the morning, when I can consider myself "fresh" and "lively." If I worked on it at night, it would take 2 or 3 times as long as in the morning/through a school day. The pressure of the morning does come with extra stress, but I thrive under it. I work quickly and efficiently when I need to.

I realize I'm a hypocrite by saying that I try to avoid stress and then give an example in which I give myself even more stress, but I take on this extra stress at the expense of a little extra free time. Free time used for playing a wee bit o' xbox, or an episode of "Community," or an hour's extra sleep (actually this hour of sleep is unrealistic, when I put something off, I decrease my sleep time to get it done, so my sleep amounts are pretty set where they are) is all better than worrying about how good my paper is. Grades will come as you deserve them. Those who work hard and diligently deserve what they get (hopefully high). Those who screw around in class and refuse to do homework deserve what they get (hopefully low). I consider myself a person who pays attention in class (I've had some trouble staying awake in Calculus lately, it's too easy...jkjkjkjkjkjkjkjk), and a person who does all the work that is necessary. But extra work isn't something I'm known to give up my free time for. I do what is necessary to get the grades I want, and I thank whatever I'm made of for a brain good at quick memorization.

I'm just livin' on a prairie--similar to how Bon Jovi was Livin' on a Prayer, but with an Australian interpretation. I like it simple. I envy life without social websites (facebook, curse you!), without robots, without time constraints, but now, life without this is unimaginable. Life sure is simpler with technology, but then again, more dramatic (maybe). I don't want to think about people who stress me out, people who don't like me, or past relations with people (I'm implying past friendships, but one can choose an alternate if he or she doth wish it be so). I want to think about now, here. I want to see what is taking place in front of me. I want to not look to the past for my thoughts of who or what people or things are. I want to see them in the present for what they are doing, how they are acting, and how they are helping. I don't want to think about what that couple will be doing in 5 minutes, or how a truth from truth or dare will affect my reputation, or how news of my actions will spread (high school...where are secrets?). I want to be in the present, but thats unrealistic, so I'll start my homework.